Another bad night.
My careful construction of pillows and positioning failed me. I was awakened 4 times with sharp pains. Did manage to sleep well until then though so I feel pretty well rested.
Miss my puppy.
Last night I had to dip into my work clothes fund (or interview clothing
fund) to buy a new keyboard. I wouldn't buy a new Apple keyboard. Don't
have $50.00 to spare. And as this is the third keyboard to just go bad
it seems futile.
The keyboard was working absolutely fine but then abruptly the space
key and six keys stop functioning. I have a thesaurus so I could do
without the letter keys but copy and pasting spaces was pretty time
I got a Logitech board for $15.00. It works okay. It is cheap and the
Apple keyboard certainly looks and feels better and the Apple has all
those hardware function keys (volume, eject, screen brightness). But for
15 bucks I figure this one will last and do just fine until I start
Yesterday was also tough as my friend spent most of
the day at the
doctors and then at the hospital getting tests. She's going to be okay
but right now she has three separate viral infections. Viral meningitis,
which is nasty but not as nasty as bacterial meningitis, a kidney
infection and a general infection. Rah.
They gave her something. Hope she'll be okay.
Being separated by imaginary borders heightens the worry and the frustration.
I'm still looking for work. Still applying for at least three jobs a day.
I'm worried now.
People have been on me for bum rapping Canada. I'm not. I've traveled
enough and lived in enough foreign countries to draw a line between the
people and its government. Even in the most
entrenched democracy the government seldom coincides with its people.
Its worse in a capitalistic society but it is usually pretty evident.
Most foreigners bum rap America as being too litigious. They don't
understand that it is those massive payouts you read about that shape
and form our society.
Like in India Union Carbide negligently murdered thousands of innocents
with a poison cloud. Its still in court over there decades later. Union
Carbide is still appealing and fighting the size of the payout. I gather
the damages to the surviving family members who were victims of the
slow painful death Union Carbide inflicted on them want so much money it
would eat up nearly a week of Union Carbides normal net profits. That's
In the USA the damages would have bankrupted the corporation and then
the lawyers would have gone after the corporate officers and bankrupted
And I think that's a good thing. Corporate America doesn't fear prison.
They fear losing money. Corporate America was poisoning dogs and cats
for a long time. They figured it was worth it.
They saved so much money by putting a known poison into dog and cat food
that they figured they'd still turn a profit based on how many animals
would likely die. The law suits wouldn't be large enough to offset the
They continued to poison animals for months until judges started to hit
them with stiffer and stiffer penalties and allowed the pain and
suffering of the pets owners to enter into the settlements. That's when
it finally stopped.
But America has an entire history trying too fight for and to find a
balance between freedom and justice. It is only in the last 30 years
when America bowed to corporate domination that our laws have gotten
screwy. I mean the old, "Better 1,000 guilty men go free than 1 innocent
man suffer," sounds cool. It is cool but we can't seem to deal with
that anymore. Still its so ingrained that the conservatives haven't been
able to totally dismantle the structure.
Even in France, where the fight for liberty runs deep, if you are
arrested you are presumed guilty. Your task is to prove you're innocent
not for the prosecutor to prove your guilt.
In the U.K. they revoked the right to silence. Being confused, dazed or
lost isn't sufficient. Not answering a cop's (a COP'S) question will be
held against you.
In Canada you do not have the right to speak to an attorney before
questioning. They state that you have a right to one phone call. You
don't. You can ask the cop to call a lawyer for you and he may or may
not choose to do so.
You can sue the cop for refusing to make the call. It will cost you
about $25,000.00 and if you win you'll get a written apology . . . and
The quality of cops has been declining world wide. Mainly because of the
quality of the men who want to be cops. See, fewer and fewer want to be
police officers, protecting the innocent, helping
the helpless sort of men. Most of them want to act out some control
fantasy, carry guns and shoot people and get away with it. The UK and
Canada are both giving more and more types of cops guns. They didn't
need guns for hundreds of years but now they do. Well, they really don't
but they want them and they have unions.
So I'm not really bum rapping Canada so much as I'm noticing that any
society that attempts to run essential services at a profit will
eventually work most to appear it is following the letter of the law
while intentionally ignoring the intent of the law.
Any country that does not prize the rights of children and the rights of
the individual over all other rights is out of necessity going to
become a cruel heartless torturing nation.
And I still miss my puppy. I still hope my friend is okay.